The Importance of Being Two-Faced

The problem with two-faced people is deciding which face to slap first. I believe most of us don't know who actually wrote that but yeah thumbs up for pointing that out! But being able to do that as a matter of fact, is a very useful skill, not for a deceiving purposes of course, tapi dalam hal curhat.

We gotta know to whom we should appear prim and to whom we can be warm. And more importantly, to whom we should appear strong and to whom we can show vulnerabilities. It's sometimes for them, not for you.

I tell my mother more stuff lately, maybe because I found out she is apparently more interested in stories of my life than I thought, but these more frequent and more in-depth interactions are somehow considered threatening when it comes to being two-faced. I always show my shallow vulnerabilities to her, I whine about a lot of stuff, but I spare the serious issues to myself to keep her from worrying to much, and somehow ahahah, to protect my pride. Especially about that one particular thing I always try to act coldly and ignorantly about. Only God knows how I actually never stop thinking about it.

I actually do talk it up with some, selected close friends who has nothing to do with my mother hahah, and to whom I can be a slightly open book, but never in serious manner. Because if I do, I would almost certainly be a totally open book. I don't want that.

And yesterday I was struck by the arch-enemy, migraine. Mommy was giving my head a massage when she suddenly asked me about that concealed matter, in a serious tone, and I almost bursted into tears while trying hard to keep my second face functioning properly. And I'm not sure if this inadequate skill of mine can handle one more direct attack.

I don't want that either.